Just plain missing you sweetheart. I read so many things in the news and it is probably best if I don't do that but somehow if I know what goes on around you I will know what's going on with you. I don't know, some weird way to try and feel closer to you. It is getting hard, the realization has set in that you will be gone for awhile and now I have to find things to occupy my time so that I don't think about the time. Don't get me wrong, I'm here and I am not going anywhere. You hear me? I am NOT going anywhere. I just long for you so much and you are so far away. No one can ever take your place. Not now, not ever. I'm hanging in there too and I know I will get my Mike fix soon, it's just when I don't hear from you in a few days I get kinda melancholy because you bring so much light to my life when you do contact me.
On another note, Jock set his goal to bench 370 today at the gym and he did, check it out babe!
We miss and love you so much Daddy. Please hurry home to us! Love you, love you, love you. XOXO
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Day 25
Time is ticking by, sometimes rapidly, sometimes slowly.. like now. All I want to do is be laying beside you.. silent, not saying any words. Just being in your space is the best thing I could ever hope to have right now. I will hold on to the future, to my memories, and my pillow. It's definitely not you, but it will have to do.
Taking next Thursday and Friday off of work. I just need a break from that place and haven't taken time off in awhile. I am going to go have lunch with Izzy on one of those days. We always have fun with that!
I'm quite tired tonight and it is already about ten but I had to write out a short entry. I love you and miss you terribly.
-A
Taking next Thursday and Friday off of work. I just need a break from that place and haven't taken time off in awhile. I am going to go have lunch with Izzy on one of those days. We always have fun with that!
I'm quite tired tonight and it is already about ten but I had to write out a short entry. I love you and miss you terribly.
-A
Monday, August 29, 2011
Day 24
Mood: Happy!
I think back to when I first started this blog, the day before you left and I was thinking of a title. It did not take me long to come up with this one and even today I say the "miles don't matter". You could be 10,000 miles away or 2 miles away I would still miss you just the same. My love will not change, my loyalty will not change, my feelings will not change. A soldier needs the support, the undying love, and the conviction of his woman to get him through his days and nights. I am and will continue to do that for my man.
I have loved you for what seems like forever, and allowing that love to guide me has been the best decision I could have made. I have felt myself flourish and come alive. I have embraced it and it has come back to me. I am so in love with you darling.
Today's happenings: The usual. I got word today that Jock will have an unofficial game on November 19th. I can't wait for that! The princess has just fallen asleep and I'mwatching listening to the television.
Dear Lord, Flood Mike's life with your love and protection. Allow his days to be free from harm and danger. Lord, give him the strength that it takes to endure during his mission. Lord, please make sure that you get him home to his family. In Jesus' name, Amen.
I think back to when I first started this blog, the day before you left and I was thinking of a title. It did not take me long to come up with this one and even today I say the "miles don't matter". You could be 10,000 miles away or 2 miles away I would still miss you just the same. My love will not change, my loyalty will not change, my feelings will not change. A soldier needs the support, the undying love, and the conviction of his woman to get him through his days and nights. I am and will continue to do that for my man.
I have loved you for what seems like forever, and allowing that love to guide me has been the best decision I could have made. I have felt myself flourish and come alive. I have embraced it and it has come back to me. I am so in love with you darling.
Today's happenings: The usual. I got word today that Jock will have an unofficial game on November 19th. I can't wait for that! The princess has just fallen asleep and I'm
Dear Lord, Flood Mike's life with your love and protection. Allow his days to be free from harm and danger. Lord, give him the strength that it takes to endure during his mission. Lord, please make sure that you get him home to his family. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Day 23
Mood: Eh. Bothered.
I kind of hope you don't read this entry, it's not the happiest one, and I know you don't need any stress but I have had something on mind the last day or so and I'm not sure if I should bring it to your attention to discuss or not for the next time we talk. If you read this one today or tomorrow, let me know. Otherwise, I'm just gonna let the wind blow it over and let it ride. My main concern is that you remain focused on what you have to do while you are away. I got you and I support you fully.
On a more joyful note, I am missing you like mad and hope that you have looked at the pictures and video that I sent you earlier. It's meant to brighten your day love!
We are winding down after watching the Justin Bieber movie again and are all tucked in for bed. You are going to be up in a less than a couple of hours and if should be able to, call me. You know it doesn't matter the time. Anything for you my darling. I love you my soldier XOXO
I kind of hope you don't read this entry, it's not the happiest one, and I know you don't need any stress but I have had something on mind the last day or so and I'm not sure if I should bring it to your attention to discuss or not for the next time we talk. If you read this one today or tomorrow, let me know. Otherwise, I'm just gonna let the wind blow it over and let it ride. My main concern is that you remain focused on what you have to do while you are away. I got you and I support you fully.
On a more joyful note, I am missing you like mad and hope that you have looked at the pictures and video that I sent you earlier. It's meant to brighten your day love!
We are winding down after watching the Justin Bieber movie again and are all tucked in for bed. You are going to be up in a less than a couple of hours and if should be able to, call me. You know it doesn't matter the time. Anything for you my darling. I love you my soldier XOXO
listen to the words!
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Day 22
Lucky 22! That's my number wooo-hoooo! And I can say today has already been a marvelous day. 2 phone calls and webcam? I'm sitting on top of the world love! :)
I'll spend the rest of my day relaxing and reminiscing and looking forward to your next call later on.
Did I mention I got a $238 blazer (the tags are still on it!) for $5.99 on my little thrift haul today???? It's gonna look hot.. you know how I put it together..... That made up for the ho-hum chicken that I had. Guess I was craving it so much it just wasn't going to satisfy me anyhow!
Love you and miss you more soldier... Mama is forever holding it down over here. MUAH! XOXO
Oh! And I got the piece of cake out of the freezer and I am going to tear it up!!!!
I'll spend the rest of my day relaxing and reminiscing and looking forward to your next call later on.
Did I mention I got a $238 blazer (the tags are still on it!) for $5.99 on my little thrift haul today???? It's gonna look hot.. you know how I put it together..... That made up for the ho-hum chicken that I had. Guess I was craving it so much it just wasn't going to satisfy me anyhow!
Love you and miss you more soldier... Mama is forever holding it down over here. MUAH! XOXO
Oh! And I got the piece of cake out of the freezer and I am going to tear it up!!!!
Friday, August 26, 2011
Day 21
Your email meant the world to me. I love what you write and am happy to know that you look to me for strength and relief from all that oppression and danger. I will continue to strive to offer that relief to you, to bring if only a minute of joy to your life, or a smile to your face. I miss that face, I miss that smile. I miss those lips and kisses.. and hugs... and... well you know. Hurry up daddy!
Home alone tonight and probably the rest of the weekend. I'm sitting in complete darkness as I write but in complete peace and lost in thoughts of you. It's amazing where the mind can take you just by recalling certain moments in time, feelings that you had, feelings that you currently have, smells, touches.. all of that. It's a joy knowing that I can still feel you so strongly even so far away. You are the love of my life sweetheart. Truly.
Still full from lunch; my friend Alba and I went to a place called El Charro's and stuffed our faces. work was sloooow but only because I think people thought we were closed. Fun times to be had on Monday then.
3 weeks down. That's almost a third if you are gone only 3 months. Sweet! If not 3 months, than it's almost a 6th but still going back fast to me. Every day that goes by is just a day closer to you my love. I'm ready to do big things!
I love you more than you could imagine. XOXO
Home alone tonight and probably the rest of the weekend. I'm sitting in complete darkness as I write but in complete peace and lost in thoughts of you. It's amazing where the mind can take you just by recalling certain moments in time, feelings that you had, feelings that you currently have, smells, touches.. all of that. It's a joy knowing that I can still feel you so strongly even so far away. You are the love of my life sweetheart. Truly.
Still full from lunch; my friend Alba and I went to a place called El Charro's and stuffed our faces. work was sloooow but only because I think people thought we were closed. Fun times to be had on Monday then.
3 weeks down. That's almost a third if you are gone only 3 months. Sweet! If not 3 months, than it's almost a 6th but still going back fast to me. Every day that goes by is just a day closer to you my love. I'm ready to do big things!
I love you more than you could imagine. XOXO
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Day 20
Sigh. Baby, I know you must be so very busy, I really wonder if you have read the blog yet or looked at that pictures. Perhaps one day or when you return you can look back and read all the entries. If anything, it does help me get through the days and nights without you by writing.
Weather is a fury here now with Hurricane Irene just off the coast. She is supposed to bear down in the early morning hours, I just hope my fence withstands the rains and winds. Other than that, I have life, and love and my family. That really is all that matters.
Three weeks down tomorrow love, still counting the days til we are together again! I love you so much.
Dear Lord, Cast out every evil thing, every evil spirit that may come close to Mike and his team while away in enemy territory. Surround him with your strength and love and keep him away from the evils of man. Keep me strong in my loyalty and let our love guide me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Weather is a fury here now with Hurricane Irene just off the coast. She is supposed to bear down in the early morning hours, I just hope my fence withstands the rains and winds. Other than that, I have life, and love and my family. That really is all that matters.
Three weeks down tomorrow love, still counting the days til we are together again! I love you so much.
Dear Lord, Cast out every evil thing, every evil spirit that may come close to Mike and his team while away in enemy territory. Surround him with your strength and love and keep him away from the evils of man. Keep me strong in my loyalty and let our love guide me. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Day 19
Mood: Ambivalent
So happy to have heard your wonderful voice yesterday! Each time that happens I breathe a big sigh! Getting emotional is hard not to do sweetie, I am not sad. I just miss you and my heart overflows with it all...
Lover, you are missed more than you could ever know. Wherever you lay your head at night I wish I could be right there. Time is setting in now, it's been almost 3 weeks BUT I can also look at it as if it's almost possibly, a third of the way over! yay!
I have zero planned for the weekend, Isabella will be with her dad and Jock will most likely be at his girlfriend's house, maybe I will catch that movie I have been wanting to see "The Help"... speaking of help, let me know what you need sweetheart, I am here for you. ALWAYS.
Right now, I am just trying to get our princess to do her homework and she is getting off task and doing cheerleading routines and model posing. Definitely my daughter! LOL. We had one one our favs for dinner tonight, pizza... Can't get enough of that sometimes.
I love you soldier, keep your head up and know that we are right here waiting for you to come home. XOXO
PS. This is what she was doing when she was supposed to be completing her homework: ( you see her pipecleaner project on the wall?)
So happy to have heard your wonderful voice yesterday! Each time that happens I breathe a big sigh! Getting emotional is hard not to do sweetie, I am not sad. I just miss you and my heart overflows with it all...
Lover, you are missed more than you could ever know. Wherever you lay your head at night I wish I could be right there. Time is setting in now, it's been almost 3 weeks BUT I can also look at it as if it's almost possibly, a third of the way over! yay!
I have zero planned for the weekend, Isabella will be with her dad and Jock will most likely be at his girlfriend's house, maybe I will catch that movie I have been wanting to see "The Help"... speaking of help, let me know what you need sweetheart, I am here for you. ALWAYS.
Right now, I am just trying to get our princess to do her homework and she is getting off task and doing cheerleading routines and model posing. Definitely my daughter! LOL. We had one one our favs for dinner tonight, pizza... Can't get enough of that sometimes.
I love you soldier, keep your head up and know that we are right here waiting for you to come home. XOXO
PS. This is what she was doing when she was supposed to be completing her homework: ( you see her pipecleaner project on the wall?)
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Day 18!
Mood:Thankful
My love, I miss you so. My strength is not in question, but I long to hear from you. Are you ok? Are you safe? I pray that you are and I am holding on to happy thoughts. It has been a week since I have heard from you but it seems like forever. :) Hearing from you brings about so much happiness and I always look forward to the next time we get a chance to communicate.
Not sure if you heard but there was an earthquake in DC and VA today, about 50 miles from the house, and the Pentagon was evacuated. Yep. There was a water main break on the second floor but other than that, nothing else reported. I am sure if you were home you would have definitely felt it. My girlfriend in SC said she felt it!
I've got Izzy in front of me doing her homework while I cook dinner. Jock of course is at practice!
We love you to the moon and back! (and then some, and then some plus infinity!) XOXO
My love, I miss you so. My strength is not in question, but I long to hear from you. Are you ok? Are you safe? I pray that you are and I am holding on to happy thoughts. It has been a week since I have heard from you but it seems like forever. :) Hearing from you brings about so much happiness and I always look forward to the next time we get a chance to communicate.
Not sure if you heard but there was an earthquake in DC and VA today, about 50 miles from the house, and the Pentagon was evacuated. Yep. There was a water main break on the second floor but other than that, nothing else reported. I am sure if you were home you would have definitely felt it. My girlfriend in SC said she felt it!
I've got Izzy in front of me doing her homework while I cook dinner. Jock of course is at practice!
Here is the picture from our little outing from Saturday!
Monday, August 22, 2011
Day 17
Mood: Joyous and hopeful
Hola mi amor!
Well the days are flying by as I count them. I guess they is some truth by keeping your eye on the end. I am just so focused on prayer to get you back home and in my arms where you belong daddy! I thought about a lot of the upbeat songs that make me think of you and one in particular that I know you like.
Hola mi amor!
Well the days are flying by as I count them. I guess they is some truth by keeping your eye on the end. I am just so focused on prayer to get you back home and in my arms where you belong daddy! I thought about a lot of the upbeat songs that make me think of you and one in particular that I know you like.
This one never fails to make me think of you!
I am taking advantage of some alone time while Jock is at practice and Isabella is with her dad celebrating his wife's birthday... Just finished some boring housework and about to sit down and eat. Nom. Nom.
Today was a good, productive day at work and did I neglect to mention your lady again made lemonade out of lemons and handled her biz?!?! You make me want to be better for us soooo much! I love you soldier and await your call. xoxo
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Day 16.
Baby, oh baby.. Isabella and I experienced the 3 B's today, and that's not Boo Baby Bubbles.
It was BBQ, Bieber, and Bats! YES baby. I walked out on my balcony today and saw a bat hanging up side down and climbing on the shingles, in the middle of the day. And you know me, I had to take a picture of it. I have never seen one before except at the zoo. Wow! I got waaaay to close to it to take this picture but I braved it and hoped he didn't
move. Princess got a kick out of it but wouldn't go close. Yuck. We went out to lunch today at Texas Roadhouse and chowed down way too much food, but had a nice time doing our mommy daughter lunch.. Then we came home and watched the Justin Bieber movie AGAIN!
Now that I have killed all the romanticism in this blog by mentioning bats, I would like to change the mood and tell you how very much I need you, love you, want you, and support you and above all miss you! This is the longest we have went without contact and I have had to keep telling myself that no news is good news. I'm adding the request to my prayers tonight that God provide me with some contact from you.
I wish so badly to be lying beside you, eating oatmeal raisin cookies, sipping on my Diet Coke, and watching movies together. MUAH! xoxo
move. Princess got a kick out of it but wouldn't go close. Yuck. We went out to lunch today at Texas Roadhouse and chowed down way too much food, but had a nice time doing our mommy daughter lunch.. Then we came home and watched the Justin Bieber movie AGAIN!
Now that I have killed all the romanticism in this blog by mentioning bats, I would like to change the mood and tell you how very much I need you, love you, want you, and support you and above all miss you! This is the longest we have went without contact and I have had to keep telling myself that no news is good news. I'm adding the request to my prayers tonight that God provide me with some contact from you.
I wish so badly to be lying beside you, eating oatmeal raisin cookies, sipping on my Diet Coke, and watching movies together. MUAH! xoxo
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Day 15
Isabella is going to start out the post this evening!
hi it is Isabella can you come to r house pppppppppllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeeeee
Oh sweetheart. I long to be in your arms right now.. Just laying my head on your chest and feeling it move in unison with my own heart. I was driving today and I started crying because I miss you so terribly. I want nothing more than to share some space with you.. I never realized how much those short conversations we would have in the morning meant to me.. Just to hear the words I love you, and the way you repeat them over and over " love you, love you, love you, miss you, miss you, miss you.." I replay it in my head.. Sometimes I listen to your voicemails you have left to find ways to connect to you.. Strange for a 36 year old woman? Nahhhh.. I'm just so damn in love with you and will find those ways to get through these months.
Lord, give us the strength to move through these times. Allow love to surround our family, provide the strength and safety to Mike as he continues his mission. Lord, continue to keep our spirits lifted and keep us connected. In Jesus' name, Amen.
hi it is Isabella can you come to r house pppppppppllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaasssssssssseeeeeeeeeee
Oh sweetheart. I long to be in your arms right now.. Just laying my head on your chest and feeling it move in unison with my own heart. I was driving today and I started crying because I miss you so terribly. I want nothing more than to share some space with you.. I never realized how much those short conversations we would have in the morning meant to me.. Just to hear the words I love you, and the way you repeat them over and over " love you, love you, love you, miss you, miss you, miss you.." I replay it in my head.. Sometimes I listen to your voicemails you have left to find ways to connect to you.. Strange for a 36 year old woman? Nahhhh.. I'm just so damn in love with you and will find those ways to get through these months.
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Lord, give us the strength to move through these times. Allow love to surround our family, provide the strength and safety to Mike as he continues his mission. Lord, continue to keep our spirits lifted and keep us connected. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Friday, August 19, 2011
Day 14! Birthday in Baghdad.
Well, well, well, what do we have here? Looks like the birthday boy is 36 today! (at least on Baghdad time) I know the place isn't ideal, the timing is waaaay off and the woman you love is thousands of miles away. Spent HOURS making that video for you, from selecting the music, the pictures, adding the birthday cake surprise at the end... I hope that you thoroughly enjoyed it from beginning to end! It should not have taken that long, but having to edit my edit and then losing my info it ended up that way. It was meant to lift you, to make you smile, and to know that although there is expanse between us, I am right there dwelling in your soul.
To say I wish you a happy one somehow doesn't sound right, but I do hope that you know that my intent was to make you feel loved. I am your lady, we are your family and we will be right here waiting for you.
I look forward to hearing your voice again or getting another beautiful email.
XOXO
Your queen loves you!
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Day 13
Mood: Eh.....
My love, my king, my man I adore you so. Feeling a slight detachment from you but only because my high is wearing off from when we last spoke. Why does 2 days seems like 2 weeks? Just hearing from you, getting an email from you, means the absolute world to me. I hope that when you get a chance to read this blog that you smile and receive much joy from it. That is it's intention!
It has been a mentally trying day for me in the 9-5 world, but I am over it now and glad to be perched on this king size with my 4 fluffy pillows and my Diet Coke. :) I know I will never endure the trying times you may go through and by remembering that it really puts my complaining about my "problems" in check. I'm sure you would give anything to not have to worry about the things that are most likely on your mind right now.
One thing you don't have to worry about is your lady's loyalty! I am solid and assured that I am here to stay and waiting on you. You have all my support and love for now and always. Keep making me proud soldier, I like to brag about you too! And there is a lot to brag about you know. :)
Day 13 wasn't the greatest but after "talking" to you, I feel sooooo much better. Almost 2 weeks down! Love you so very much. xoxo
My love, my king, my man I adore you so. Feeling a slight detachment from you but only because my high is wearing off from when we last spoke. Why does 2 days seems like 2 weeks? Just hearing from you, getting an email from you, means the absolute world to me. I hope that when you get a chance to read this blog that you smile and receive much joy from it. That is it's intention!
It has been a mentally trying day for me in the 9-5 world, but I am over it now and glad to be perched on this king size with my 4 fluffy pillows and my Diet Coke. :) I know I will never endure the trying times you may go through and by remembering that it really puts my complaining about my "problems" in check. I'm sure you would give anything to not have to worry about the things that are most likely on your mind right now.
One thing you don't have to worry about is your lady's loyalty! I am solid and assured that I am here to stay and waiting on you. You have all my support and love for now and always. Keep making me proud soldier, I like to brag about you too! And there is a lot to brag about you know. :)
Day 13 wasn't the greatest but after "talking" to you, I feel sooooo much better. Almost 2 weeks down! Love you so very much. xoxo
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Day 12
Mood: The day got the best of me today
Hey my love! Home and relaxing now after a long day, glad to snuggle in and write you. It has rained every day here for like the last 5 days and it just makes me want to stay under the covers, maybe I will take a day off soon to do just that. I'm so glad I have you to look forward to!
Fell asleep while writing this, just utterly exhausted, PMS time and not feeling great at all. :(
I did not have the fortunate happening of dreaming of you while that occurred but perhaps if I think about it enough, (as if I don't do that enough already) it will happen when I fall asleep again....
I love you so much sweetheart.
Dear Lord, put your loving arms around my love and shelter him from all that is evil. Let no man's malice and ill intent enter his life today or hereafter. Protect him with your covenant of love and follow him all the days of his life. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Hey my love! Home and relaxing now after a long day, glad to snuggle in and write you. It has rained every day here for like the last 5 days and it just makes me want to stay under the covers, maybe I will take a day off soon to do just that. I'm so glad I have you to look forward to!
Fell asleep while writing this, just utterly exhausted, PMS time and not feeling great at all. :(
I did not have the fortunate happening of dreaming of you while that occurred but perhaps if I think about it enough, (as if I don't do that enough already) it will happen when I fall asleep again....
I love you so much sweetheart.
Dear Lord, put your loving arms around my love and shelter him from all that is evil. Let no man's malice and ill intent enter his life today or hereafter. Protect him with your covenant of love and follow him all the days of his life. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Day 11!!!
Mood: Bouncing off the walls happy!
So happy to have heard your voice today my love, words cannot relate how overcome with emotions that I am. It feels like my insides want to burst! I feel like running around the house full speed, giving the kids high fives and toasting some champagne! So much of my life is you sweetie. I'm so happy to be your lady. All I want to do is love you and give you what you deserve. What we deserve.
See.. I knew that the 11:11 I saw on the clocks yesterday meant something. Today is the 11th day you have been gone. Tell me that ain't divinity. God is good. It's amazing.
Dear Lord, please look upon Mike and his team as they go about their mission. Grace them with all Your goodness and protection and see that they maintain their strength and fortitude. Divert the enemy from their path and forge light upon them as they go about their days and nights. In Jesus' name, Amen.
We love you so much baby, so very much. I look forward to hearing you again. You have made my day and night! Miss you too pieces. xoxo
So happy to have heard your voice today my love, words cannot relate how overcome with emotions that I am. It feels like my insides want to burst! I feel like running around the house full speed, giving the kids high fives and toasting some champagne! So much of my life is you sweetie. I'm so happy to be your lady. All I want to do is love you and give you what you deserve. What we deserve.
See.. I knew that the 11:11 I saw on the clocks yesterday meant something. Today is the 11th day you have been gone. Tell me that ain't divinity. God is good. It's amazing.
Dear Lord, please look upon Mike and his team as they go about their mission. Grace them with all Your goodness and protection and see that they maintain their strength and fortitude. Divert the enemy from their path and forge light upon them as they go about their days and nights. In Jesus' name, Amen.
We love you so much baby, so very much. I look forward to hearing you again. You have made my day and night! Miss you too pieces. xoxo
Monday, August 15, 2011
Day 10
Mood: A little concerned.
Hello my love, middle of the night there and I hope that you are sleeping soundly as humanly possible.
I haven't heard from you since Friday night and I do hope everything is okay and everyone is safe. I long to talk with you, to just hear your voice. I get teary eyed wishing that we could fall asleep on the phone together like we used to do. I yearn to be connected to you. If there is anything you need, anything at all, please, please let me know. I want to ensure that you feel somewhat closer to home, if that is even possible. Whatever I can do. I'm here for you.
Seems like everywhere I drive today I see a Hummer that looks like yours. AND for the last two days in a row when I looked at the clock it was 11:11 and 2:22. I made wishes on all three counts! I guess when you are living on faith that every coincidental thing that happens you tend to think it means something, LOL. Makes me feel like a schoolgirl doing that but prayers can't hurt, no matter the time.
I can't stop thinking of us baby. I can't stop being excited about us and for us. I'm here holding it down, supporting you,waiting for you and above all loving you so fucken much. ;)
Today's happenings: Same ole, same old. Work and practice. Isabella is reading a book but it's her own story she is telling cause I do not think Justin Bieber is mentioned in the book " Because I Love You." LOL Such a doll, that girl.
I love you soldier. xoxo
Hello my love, middle of the night there and I hope that you are sleeping soundly as humanly possible.
I haven't heard from you since Friday night and I do hope everything is okay and everyone is safe. I long to talk with you, to just hear your voice. I get teary eyed wishing that we could fall asleep on the phone together like we used to do. I yearn to be connected to you. If there is anything you need, anything at all, please, please let me know. I want to ensure that you feel somewhat closer to home, if that is even possible. Whatever I can do. I'm here for you.
Seems like everywhere I drive today I see a Hummer that looks like yours. AND for the last two days in a row when I looked at the clock it was 11:11 and 2:22. I made wishes on all three counts! I guess when you are living on faith that every coincidental thing that happens you tend to think it means something, LOL. Makes me feel like a schoolgirl doing that but prayers can't hurt, no matter the time.
I can't stop thinking of us baby. I can't stop being excited about us and for us. I'm here holding it down, supporting you,waiting for you and above all loving you so fucken much. ;)
Today's happenings: Same ole, same old. Work and practice. Isabella is reading a book but it's her own story she is telling cause I do not think Justin Bieber is mentioned in the book " Because I Love You." LOL Such a doll, that girl.
I love you soldier. xoxo
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Day 9. Post 2. Godspeak.
I LOVE YOU SOLDIER. XOXO
Day 9
Hi to my favorite guy in the wide world on the other side of the world!
I was hoping to get a phone call from you today. I know as soon as you get the phone cards you will call me no doubt. We will be here to lift you up and make you smile. :)
I was hoping to get a phone call from you today. I know as soon as you get the phone cards you will call me no doubt. We will be here to lift you up and make you smile. :)
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Day 8. Thanks and Prayer.
Mood: Ecstatic
I took this picture about a year ago or so I guess.
I look like I have something up my sleeve don't I? I know you love my smile so much, so I thought I would share it with you.
I find so much comfort in knowing where you are and that you miss me as much as I miss you love. I was overjoyed to hear from you again and have reveled in that joy all day. I have a pep in my step and a permanent smile on my face.
My friend Lisa suggested I tell you that she says " Thank you for your service". It takes a a lot to do what you do and endure the things that come with it. In retrospect, it makes my own problems seem so tiny when globally there is so much worse going on. I sent a prayer request to my favorite church today to ask the pastor to say a prayer tomorrow night at her service for you and your team. (as well as the family). I hope she does it. If not, well I will double up on my own prayer then! Won't hurt. :)
Today's happenings : Wrote a LOT today, messed around with layouts on my other blog, made a nice salad for lunch and just pondering dinner. Haven't heard from either of the kids but Izzy comes home tomorrow at noon. I will probably pick up J-Rock (wink) after I get out of work Monday.
I love you so very much soldier and I look forward to hearing your voice.
Friday, August 12, 2011
Day 7.
Mood: Happy, but exhausted.
Your birthday is nearing and I hate that you have to spend it in a war zone. My "thing" has been to always buy two cards for a birthday because I can never settle on one. So today after work while doing my grocery shopping I bought your cards. I want to send them but I am still waiting on you to provide me with your address to get things to you. My intent for now is just to send you a recording of me reading them to you, which I will do here shortly.
You and I have what I call "The Notebook" kind of love. Full of fervor, passion, undying love. No matter how many miles, how much space, how many weeks or months go by, there is no denying our bond of love sweetheart. It's total rapture my love and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
You have to read this article. A soldier came home early from his deployment and wanted to surprise his wife. The tears rolled down my cheeks as I read it. Such a sweet, loving gesture. There is a video as well.
http://www.floridatoday.com/article/20110812/NEWS01/108120322/Air-Force-wife-gets-traumatic-surprise?odyssey=tab|topnews|text|Home
Today's activities: The usual; work. ( I have been meaning to tell you something about work but I will save it for when you get back). I did go see my old boss that I haven't seen in 6 years so that was nice, I didn't realize how much I missed her until I saw her! Stopped at the grocery store on the way home and now have my feet up. My feet are aching from walking in these heels today, your lady must be getting old.
I love you soldier! xoxo
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Your birthday is nearing and I hate that you have to spend it in a war zone. My "thing" has been to always buy two cards for a birthday because I can never settle on one. So today after work while doing my grocery shopping I bought your cards. I want to send them but I am still waiting on you to provide me with your address to get things to you. My intent for now is just to send you a recording of me reading them to you, which I will do here shortly.
You and I have what I call "The Notebook" kind of love. Full of fervor, passion, undying love. No matter how many miles, how much space, how many weeks or months go by, there is no denying our bond of love sweetheart. It's total rapture my love and I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
You have to read this article. A soldier came home early from his deployment and wanted to surprise his wife. The tears rolled down my cheeks as I read it. Such a sweet, loving gesture. There is a video as well.
http://www.floridatoday.com/article/20110812/NEWS01/108120322/Air-Force-wife-gets-traumatic-surprise?odyssey=tab|topnews|text|Home
Today's activities: The usual; work. ( I have been meaning to tell you something about work but I will save it for when you get back). I did go see my old boss that I haven't seen in 6 years so that was nice, I didn't realize how much I missed her until I saw her! Stopped at the grocery store on the way home and now have my feet up. My feet are aching from walking in these heels today, your lady must be getting old.
I love you soldier! xoxo
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Thursday, August 11, 2011
Day 6
Mood: Uneasy
Hi my love! I can't help it. I watch the news too much now. It seems like ever since you left there are reports of Americans dying in combat. I know it is a critical time and I am still so proud of your dedication and strength. No news is good news though. I can only assume you are fulfilling your duties and will make time to write or call when you can. You are my Superman and I know you will be coming home. :) I'm just feeling a little anxious because of what I see on TV as anyone might be.
I really enjoy writing in this blog and do hope you read it frequently because there is going to be a lot! Every day for 6 months possibly?! That's 180 entries. I just want to ensure you have some connection to normalcy and hope the love and concern will transcend the distance. :)
Today's happenings: Work, relax, and take Jock to practice. Isabella had a good day at school today and is completing her homework over at Clifford's as I type. I'm making breakfast for dinner and might lay down a bit early because I have a headache.
I leave you with kisses, kisses, kisses and hugs.. MUAH! I love you soldier.
I really enjoy writing in this blog and do hope you read it frequently because there is going to be a lot! Every day for 6 months possibly?! That's 180 entries. I just want to ensure you have some connection to normalcy and hope the love and concern will transcend the distance. :)
Today's happenings: Work, relax, and take Jock to practice. Isabella had a good day at school today and is completing her homework over at Clifford's as I type. I'm making breakfast for dinner and might lay down a bit early because I have a headache.
I leave you with kisses, kisses, kisses and hugs.. MUAH! I love you soldier.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Day 5.
It was great to hear from you today, it reloads my strength and happiness every time I do. Just knowing you are thinking of me everyday makes my heart smile. Whatever peace I can bring in the midst of it all I am more than happy to do so. :)
Isabella is walking around the room in my heels, dress, and her Hello Kitty purse playing Beauty Pageant. She just said. " Hello, my name is Isabella Ferguson and I am from Florida. I help people celebrate their country and give them my clothes". <---- Our girl steals my heart every day. By the way, take a look at the shoes she had to rock with her uniform today! We love you SOOOOO much. XOXO
Today's happenings: school, work, home. Not hungry for dinner so we are just relaxing watching TV before we go to sleep. Very uneventful. Isabella goes to Clifford's tomorrow night for the weekend.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Day 4. Kem.
Where do I start? We both know how much we love music and how it connects us and our hearts.
The day we slow danced and you sang this song to me, I knew that is exactly where I wanted to be. Maybe I didn't know it at that *exact*moment, but I knew that the way you held me, they way you sang so in my ear, that that was my moment to exhale. That was love. True, die for you love. From there baby, it has grown into something that I never even thought possible.
I think about the day I met the perfect stranger, I think about us.
And I think about the day I got wrapped around your fingers, I think about us.
The sun was shining on you
The lord was smiling on me
And love was calling us I had my mind made up.
And I think about the day I got wrapped around your fingers, I think about us.
The sun was shining on you
The lord was smiling on me
And love was calling us I had my mind made up.
You remember that day sweetie? When we first met? I was so nervous walking toward you and I saw you and walked by... You came up behind me and whispered in my ear "You are so beautiful". WOW. I will never forget that as long as I live. You looked so damn handsome. You even made me nervous.
You told me you loved me that day and I just brushed it off. If only I had known! ;)
Today's happenings: Work, football, and getting ready for the first day of 1st grade tomorrow! Isabella is in the tub as we speak and dinner is cooking on the stove. Jock started filling out some college paperwork so he can be enrolled by September. -----I love you Soldier. XOXO
Monday, August 8, 2011
Day 3
Whew! My day has yet to end but I just sat down for a brief moment before I have to pick up Jock from practice. I heard it was supposed to be a tough day today. I really can't even fathom that he is playing semi pro football, I know they don't get paid but I think it's so awesome! I cannot wait to share those times with you and since the season doesn't start until January, you will be back to root him on with me.
Isabella is all ready for school to start on Wednesday for the most part. We met her teacher today and the teacher said she was so happy to see Isabella's name on her student list! That girl is most precious, and loved!
Right now, you are probably just waking up? Adjusting to a new time zone has got to be difficult but I know how my baby rolls. You will do what you have to do. Damn it, I am SO proud of you. It's always been the kids who have made me proud but now I have this amazing man, protecting his country, putting his life on the line every day selflessly. In the words of you, I love you so fucken much!
I was most happy to get an email from you today, my love, you have no idea the happiness I felt! It was most precious to me and if I didn't control myself at work today I might have started skipping in the office. It felt wonderful! I will look forward to the next one.
You are the love of my life and I am stronger than ever sweetie because of you, thank you so much.
As you read this, I understand it's more like a letter to you, but these are my thoughts from the day, compiled into some public blog for anyone to read but who cares. I wanna share my love of you with the world anyway, and shout it from the mountain.
Till we connect again.. I love you soldier. XOXO I played this song a million and one times today!
Isabella is all ready for school to start on Wednesday for the most part. We met her teacher today and the teacher said she was so happy to see Isabella's name on her student list! That girl is most precious, and loved!
Right now, you are probably just waking up? Adjusting to a new time zone has got to be difficult but I know how my baby rolls. You will do what you have to do. Damn it, I am SO proud of you. It's always been the kids who have made me proud but now I have this amazing man, protecting his country, putting his life on the line every day selflessly. In the words of you, I love you so fucken much!
I was most happy to get an email from you today, my love, you have no idea the happiness I felt! It was most precious to me and if I didn't control myself at work today I might have started skipping in the office. It felt wonderful! I will look forward to the next one.
You are the love of my life and I am stronger than ever sweetie because of you, thank you so much.
As you read this, I understand it's more like a letter to you, but these are my thoughts from the day, compiled into some public blog for anyone to read but who cares. I wanna share my love of you with the world anyway, and shout it from the mountain.
Till we connect again.. I love you soldier. XOXO I played this song a million and one times today!
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Day 2, post 2
I am going to find it difficult to not write more than one time a day! I don't want you to be bombarded with so many posts but there are always so many things I want to share with you my love. I'm going to be spending the night listening to all of our songs.. many of which we have played for each other over Yahoo chat. So many of them make me smile. So many make me think. Baby, I love you so much. You know I enjoy connecting with you like that. I wish I was able to put you to sleep tonight.
I have played this song over and over and over. It's "our" song, you don't know it yet but you've heard it. It moves me every time I hear it. I love you more than me. I will vow to love you through anything.
I have played this song over and over and over. It's "our" song, you don't know it yet but you've heard it. It moves me every time I hear it. I love you more than me. I will vow to love you through anything.
Day 2
Internet News.
The combination of my hypersensitive nature and my hypervigilence, reading internet news streams is not a good idea. I didn't watch it as closely as I do now, but in less than 24 hours, 2 separate incidents of Americans being killed from the DoD have been reported. It makes me uneasy until I hear from you, but I'm confident my man is just fine. :)
I've also been reading blogs and pages of women that have husbands deployed to get a sense of commune and understanding to all of this. I feel better after reading through them and actually in some way, it makes me feel closer to you. In your absence, I will grow in my understanding and strength.
My love, there is no one in the world that I would rather wait for than you. No one I would rather welcome home than you.
Today's activities? Isabella and I are watching some Netflix movies and taking this Sunday to relax!
I love you soldier.
The combination of my hypersensitive nature and my hypervigilence, reading internet news streams is not a good idea. I didn't watch it as closely as I do now, but in less than 24 hours, 2 separate incidents of Americans being killed from the DoD have been reported. It makes me uneasy until I hear from you, but I'm confident my man is just fine. :)
I've also been reading blogs and pages of women that have husbands deployed to get a sense of commune and understanding to all of this. I feel better after reading through them and actually in some way, it makes me feel closer to you. In your absence, I will grow in my understanding and strength.
My love, there is no one in the world that I would rather wait for than you. No one I would rather welcome home than you.
Today's activities? Isabella and I are watching some Netflix movies and taking this Sunday to relax!
I love you soldier.
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Day 1
I woke up this morning in peace. As the time progressed toward the witching hour, my body started to feel funny, my mind was ok, but my body was manifesting all my emotions and I just felt off. I waited all morning to hear the call that you had promised me before you got on the plane and Isabella wanted to sing you happy birthday in that adorable voice of hers. I was ready, ready to let you know that I am strong, that I would not cry and that I would hold it down. Just wanted to verbalize it to you. I wanted to have the opportunity to let you know your lady is here to stay. Wishing you well is something I wanted to say to you, not text to you. With this, I am left feeling confused and wanting to understand you. I know you don't like goodbyes baby, but it wasn't a goodbye. Your leaving is the catalyst to the beginning of US.
With that, Isabella and I are headed out for our mommy daughter lunch and some school shopping. I'll make sure and take pictures along the way and post them here for you to see. I hope you can imagine being with us, laughing, giggling, and loving.
Almost one day down, I love you baby.
Addendum: I just read the newspaper and saw that 30 Americans were killed in Afghanistan today. :(
Almost one day down, I love you baby.
Addendum: I just read the newspaper and saw that 30 Americans were killed in Afghanistan today. :(
Friday, August 5, 2011
The night before Day 1
It's the night before. Not before Christmas, not before a wedding, not before a vacation. It is the night before you leave for Iraq and I am a mix of emotions that I am trying to keep under wraps. How do I feel? Proud, sad, sick, confident, indifferent, maybe even mad. One thing I am not feeling is despair for I know that you will come back to me. I hold on to the memories that I have burned into my conscious and every little thing we have shared and all the things that we will share in the future. I feel now more than ever, that it is my duty to give you all of me.. From the top of my head to my toes, from the top of my heart to the bottom, my mind, my body.. everything.
Your plane ride will be long, I know you will be focused on work and perhaps, every so often, I might creep into your mind and make you smile. Yeah, that's it, that one.The miles are far, the land so distant, but the connection that you and I have will endure all of that. I make my promise to you as I did earlier today. Me and you baby. No one else.
With that, get your mind right. You've got a lot of things ahead of you. I'm so very, very proud of you and your ambitions. You are my Superman and I am so happy that you are mine.
I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU.
Your plane ride will be long, I know you will be focused on work and perhaps, every so often, I might creep into your mind and make you smile. Yeah, that's it, that one.The miles are far, the land so distant, but the connection that you and I have will endure all of that. I make my promise to you as I did earlier today. Me and you baby. No one else.
With that, get your mind right. You've got a lot of things ahead of you. I'm so very, very proud of you and your ambitions. You are my Superman and I am so happy that you are mine.
I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU.
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